Swine Flu and Apple Sauce

Not quite over with, but getting over the worse, time someone told the truth about Swine flu, i have read the stories, and then i made sure i had enough flu medicines to last a small family a month, what i did not realise was to stock up on foods that's so plain, like bread, crackers.

I first started feeling ill on 21st Dec 2009 where i had a sore back, felt really achy, like i had hurt something, i had to go to a family party, the weather was appalling, the party room was on the second floor which was four flights up.

Then by Monday i went into work and felt really lethargic not sure what i did in work, i just was there, not sure if i even did anything because i cannot remember.

Tuesday i could not get out of bed, felt very rough. Had to call in sick.

Wednesday i took care of my neices little girl who was also very poorly, then i went into work at 1pm, felt okay i thought.

Thursday i couldn't goto work, never felt so bad, i was shivering, could not get warm, because the office has heating problems, i just thought no point going into work where its freezing when i cannot get warm, so i had to ring in work and then it had to be a sick day.

Thursday is when it all started.

It was like getting a ticket to Hell. Not quite come back from Hell yet, but trying hard to get out of it.

Snot, you have never seen so much snot, the key to Swine flu snot, is keep spitting it into a tissue, i have had a constant snotty nose, cough, and phlemn like nothing else.

At about 11pm i started inwardly shivering, my whole body was shaking, felt very cold, had heating on 25, put on two lots of thermal clothings, had two hot water bottles, got into bed under a high tog duvet, had fleece blanket over me, i was freezing! I lay there for possibly an hour and half and shook, then the fun started, it turned from shivers to a fever, it was so high, i thought my head was going to explode, so layers were taken off, and i was so hot, i was sweating, not pleasant, but my hair, my bed, clothes, drenched, inbetween this happening, i kept having to go to the loo, either walking to the kitchen or the bathroom, needed a drink every 20 mins, this went on until 6am, then the fever broke, it was Christmas Day! had not slept all night, probably walked a marathon to and fro from the kitchen, to bed, to the bathroom to bed, all night long, felt exhausted, drained.

Christmas Day!

All i wanted to do on Christmas Day was go to sleep. But large family, had to go to my sisters, told her i was ill, told her how last night was, and she said, the babies are ill also, so if we are going to get it, we would have got it, no point you being in the flat on your own on Christmas Day moping about, so i couldn't say no, although i thought it was madness, because i felt so very ill.

Tried my best on Christmas Day, felt very sick.

It came to sitting down for the gorgeous dinner my sister usually makes on Christmas Day, its official she is really one of the best cooks around, so i was gutted, it looked lovely, but i felt sick, i tried alittle of the potatoes, and that was it, i had to go lie down, said i was sorry i couldn't eat it, i could tell she was abit pissed off with me, everyone just looked at me, as if to say, your mad, because it looked really nice, everyone was enjoying it, i had to go lie down, so i went in the living room and lay on the settee. Every ounce of energy left me, i could hardly move.

Then it started again, i was freezing, my stomach felt like it was in a rage, i thought, no, try not to throw up, put everyone off their dinners, so i lay on the settee holding my stomach.

After everyone had eaten, baby started crying she had earache, once she was given some medicine, and was cuddled, traditions is we give out our presents after our dinner.

So everyone gave each other their presents, and opened them, and all the time i am thinking its time to go home. The problem was, it had been snowing for a week, it was icy outside, and i did not have the energy to get off the settee and walk to my flat.

My nephew very kindly driven me home, as soon as i got it, i had to get to the bathroom, where i threw up, all over my clothes, the bathroom covered.

I was throwing up all night, eventually got in bed, after about 6 hours sleep, i woke up, i had to go bathroom fast, i had violent pains in my stomach, and i had diahorea, that lasted about 3 hours, i could not get off the toilet, thank god to storing magazines in the bathroom, not what girls do i know, but a habit i picked up from the ex. The diahorea went on for possibly two days, inbetween throwing up, earache, headache, and pains in my stomach.

And the hacking cough, the cough that was bringing up blood, i have gone through one full box of man size tissues, 4 toilet rolls, 1 kitchen roll, 2 bottles of bleach.

And as for eating, i have been able to eat a piece of toast. And smells and tastes are ruined, i decided this year i was having a healthy Christmas, my fridge is full of fruit and veg, all healthy, but with Swine Flu, anything sweet knocked me sick, if i opened the fridge, all i could smell is sugar, sickly.

Was told to ring the nhs helpline, who asked me some questions, was told i had Swine Flu, was given a special code, which consists of letters and numbers, and told i could pick up my Tamiflu tablets at a particular place in my area, but the person being your flu friend would have to have your drivers licence, and they also would have to have prove they are who they say they are.

When i spoke to the woman on the helpline further, i told her i had recently had renal coliac, and she told me that it might be best i ride out the illness without taking the tablets.

So i decided to take her advice.

Last night, all i did was cough, throw up, and have the runs, i feel hungry, and fed up, bored and feel quite miserable that i have missed Christmas, i was looking forward to having fun with the kids, as its the babies first Christmas, looking forward to giving the presents to everyone, and most of all looking forward to Christmas dinner.

Today i feel tired, worn out, sick to the stomach, and still have the runs, but feel much better than i have felt in days.

I titled this post Swine Flu and Apple Sauce, because when i lay in bed, unable to move, i used my mobile phone to go onto the internet, and i found some strange posts about what to eat if you have Swine Flu, and one of them was to have apple sauce on toast, the actual thought of that is making me queasy, apple sauce is the last thing, especially as its what you serve with pork! some proper dickheads out there for sure.

Keep thinking i wish i had had the Swine Flu jab, i have had the Flu and Pneumonia jab, why did i listen to that bloody woman in the doctors reception, she was telling me how ill she felt when she had the Swine Flu Jab, and i thought forget that, i think i not bother, stupid move! if you get the chance to have the Swine Flu Jab, have it!

Learn from my stupid mistake, have that injection.

List of what got me through the last nasty few days are:

Asda Non Drowsy Decongestant with Paracetamols
Lemsip Chesty Cough medicine
Robinsons Lemon Barley cordial
Asda Man size balm tissues

What would have been good to buy i guess would be Tena Ladys! you need to think about that one!

My throat hurts, my stomach hurts, feel like my ribs are broke, And having the runs for two half days is also making it difficult to sit down, so yes i am getting better, wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy, even the arsehole who lives in the flat above me, i would not wish this onto.

And yes i have heard all the jokes, oink oink!

It has been a while since i added to this blog, after my last swine flu post above, i was still ill with swine flu, it lasted another 4 weeks before i could say it had gone, ended up getting an ambulance twice, because my airways had blocked during coughing, i was very unwell, swine flu is a horrible type of flu, i did lose 5lb probably due to sweat, or even the fact i could not swallow anything.

Again i would not wish Swine flu onto anyone, its a horrible illness if like me your immune system is down and needs to be healthy to handle this flu.

For the past 2 months i have been taking Innovace tablets, best tablets ever, to build up my immune stystem. I am feeling much better.

Specialists

Its been a while since i jotted down anything on my blog, it was only today my boss and i was talking about having a blogger, i thought i would add to it tonight.

Yesterday i saw Vickers hes the specialist for stomach etc, i have seen him three times since i came out of hospital, quite a handsome dude i thought, i am sure my contact lenses must have needed changing when i thought this, because yesterday when i saw him, he wasn't anything special, i think the special part was how caring he was while i was in hospital, he treated me like a person rather than a bed number, first time after i came out of hospital, i had seen him he did that horrible test where he gave me an injection that was suppose to make me sleep, and then put a tube and camera down my throat, but i woke up half way through the precedure, fighting for them to get off me. I remember it to well, people say they do not remember, but i remember it to vividly. Then because the results were only half done, i had to have a B meal, ha, not breakfast, a horrible chemical, also a radiation chemical, and then had to have a CTscan, not a pleasant way to spend an afternoon i can tell you that for nothing! I was very sick for three days later, thought my insides were going to explode, and throwing up ewww yuk.

Yesterday was the day i got the results for the CTscan. Not the news i wanted to hear, i am now being referred onto TWO more specialists, in two different fields, what is worse than seeing all these specialists is, i am still in pain, i am in constant pain across the lower part of my stomach. The other specialists, i will explain about those ones when it happens, its not something i can talk about at the moment.

Tomorrow i am seeing a Kidney specialist, i think that one is called a Urologist, because three weeks ago, i had the pleasure NOT, to have 4 kidney stones, and renal colic is like nothing else, the first kidney stone that came out was 10mm long, and 2mm wide, i have it in a jar, i also have photos of it, shall upload another time. The other 3 are tiny, more like grains of sand, but all the same very painful, its been one week and no more kidney stones or renal pain, thank god, with the stomach pain i don't need anymore pain. I think tomorrow i have to have more tests, the secretary mentioned CTscan but i told them to look at the results of Vickers, because i really do not want to experience that again, if it can be helped.

And the next specialist is on the 23rd of December, that one is Rheumotologist, not sure how that is spelt nor do i have the time to check it, but, i am seeing that one because i have swellings behind my knees and painful water retention in my legs.

All in all its pretty depressing, but i am trying to keep positive, at least they know its not gallstones, and they know i am not pregnant HAHA! like i could be, but its ruled out!

I was doing so well before May 2009 i was losing weight, going for jogs, exercising, and really enjoying that feeling you get when your running on your own and freedom, i loved it, its the feeling i am holding on too.

I have to get that feeling back, so i am hoping light exercises might help, if i build up slowly, i know i cannot run at the moment, i can hardly walk, but if i do light core exercises, then its a start right?...

I am treating myself at Christmas, going to buy myself something i have wanted for 3 years, so maybe it will help.

I cannot tell you what it is, its a surprise LOL!

Well hope to post again soon, maybe i will tomorrow, although i do not want my blog all about the specialists, i want to get back to the thrill of running, i wasn't very good at it, but in 3 months i had lost 18lbs, so it was slow, but i was getting there. Sadly i have put it back on, been dieting with the help of the nurse at the doctors. I will know if i have done well on the 14th December when i get my monthly weigh in.

Anyhow night night xx

21st June 11am at Heaton Park

Well how can anyone do this R4L with no training and stomach pains, utter bloody madness if you had asked me a year ago, but i cannot train cos of the stomach pain, so i won't be running, i shall be walking, if you like to sponsor the nutter, then the link is below.

http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/nirvanabliss

All support is most welcomed!

H.Pylori & Suspect Bleeding Ulcer!!!

Only 3 weeks ago, i was thinking 5 weeks to go for the Race for Life, and then i got ill, never felt pain like it, went to the doctors, had so many tests, on my wee, my poo, and even took my blood! and then i was given some news, you have a bacterium thats eating your stomach lining, its called Helicobacter pylori, which i guess explains how i have been feeling for a couple of years now.

You can read about it here http://www.helico.com/faq_symptoms.html

I was given a threble course of tablets which was 2 lots of antibiotics and 1 week of anti acid tablets, after the course had been taken, i ended up taking myself to A&E with heart pains, was kept in until my heartbeart went from 45 bph to a normal beat of 70.

Then 2 days later from the A&E trip, i went to my doctors, who said due to the results of the tests, you need to go into Hospital, a suspected bleed/inflammation. So off i went back to A&E within the hour i had a bed on a obs ward.

The pain is like a gnawing inside my stomach, but what upsets me the most is in 2 weeks i have put on 1 and half stone, because my stomach has extreme abdominal swelling.

I did all that training, dieted and was happy i had lost 18lbs and then i get ill, and all that weight goes back on, maybe not in fat, but its the weight that matters, and the bloated look really is embarassing!!!

I was out of the hospital by the weekend, no way was i going to stay there, when the sun was shining, the hottest weekend of the year and i was stuck in a ward with 7 women who was bored stupid!

Go to the doctor on the Monday, to be told she thinks i should not do the Race for Life, that i should put it off until September, errr no, i am doing that R4L, i might not be able to run now, but i am going to do it, i am going to walk it instead, i said all along there was no way i was going to be in the walking section of the R4L, but i guess if i want to do it, while i am in pain, then its going to be the walking!!!

The doctor's words were, keep away from walking out in the sticks, make sure you are closeby to a phone, if your ulcer is bleeding, then you could have a internal bleed, which could get worse by doing this R4L, she said you could feel fine one minute then very ill the next.

I do not want to fail, if i do not do this, then in my own mind i have failed, i know i could do this again next year, but i do not want to put this off until next year.

On the 15th June i go in Hospital for an Endoscopy, i am being sedated for this, after listening to all the horror stories about people having this done, even from big hard men, so i am going to be asleep for this, they are doing the Endoscopy to see if the H.Pylori is still there after the threble lot of tablets, to take biopsies, and to see if the ulcer is bleeding.

If its an all clear, then i have to have the camera up the bum!!! which i will definately be asleep for!!!

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Fellrunners in Mankini's

Hilarious chat on the forum today, about fellrunners wearing mankinis, could this be the new kit?

Photos coming soon...not to be missed!

Fat Girl Running...

Beginners diary...

I already have a runners diary online, which calculates how much i have ran, calories, and much more, but as i have stated my nickname is FAT GIRL RUNNING.

I am a fat girl, there is no shame in this, i have in the past been slim, once was size 8 in clothes, had a 22in waist, and thought i could eat as much as liked. But eventually it catches up on you, and having taken the pill at 22, by 26 the weight started piling on, i blame most of this on the pill i was taking, that tablet has now been discontinued, but its the reason my weight started piling on, its not the excuse for why i am fat now, there is no excuses for that, i am now obese, not a nice word, and no, i am not proud of being obese, i am only a size 16 in clothes, which in X amount of years i have doubled in size, again nothing to be proud of, but its a fact.

I have tried ALL the diets, every single one you can possibly think of, i have probably done, or contenplated on doing. I have lots of diet books, lots of healthy eating recipe books.

The lack of exercises i feel was the cause, because at the age of 26 i passed my driving test, i then had a car, i then stopped walking, i must have walked easily 20 miles a week, to and from work, or to and from college, so i guess, the car is to blame! still, thats the facts!

And after trying all the diets, and healthy eating, and walking to work, etc etc the one thing i have always wanted to do was run...

Always wanted to learn to run, but come on... FAT GIRLS DON'T RUN!

Well this FAT GIRL DOES! and its only been my 2nd week of running, but i feel trapped today, i want to go out and run round the block, but because of the tonsilitus and antibiotics etc, i have to rest, which is why i am about to emulsion my living room ceiling.

I have to do some kind of exercise, keep the muscles moving, otherwise the last 2 weeks would have been a waste.

My first run was with Andy, he is a personal trainer and also a friend. Because i have a disability, which has its disadvantages, i had to have my first run with Andy, as he can teach me the proper way of breathing, or the best exercises to do after my run, gives encouragement too.

So, my first run, couldn't even run 40 yards, the beginners running programme, states we have to in the first week, run, walk, run, walk.

So the first week is 3 runs of 4 mins fast walk, 1 min run, and this continues until its 30 mins of walk/run exercise.

The 2nd run, Andy told me i had run possibly 1/16th of a mile, and the rest walking, of which was 1 half miles.

The 3rd run was with a friend whose nickname is Pilgrim, he said i ran 1/2 a mile out of 2 miles, which is not bad on tonilitus. bad weather too, blumming crazy really, raining, windy, and freezing, is this really a clever idea, err no! not really under the circumstances.

But, FAT GIRLS got to start somewhere!!!

The training has to be stopped for one week, while i get rid of the tonsilitus.

I love my Job...

There is not many people who can say they love their jobs...

I have worked in alot of jobs where i have hated the place, hated the bosses, hated the thought of being nice to people i really could not stand the sight of!

But 8 months ago, i applied for this job i have now, and it was a struggle first, not i guess of the job, but for many other reasons which will come apparent eventually on this blog, but what i fought with most was my own self-esteem, my own self-belief.

After going back to work after the Christmas holidays, i really enjoyed last week, the girls in the office we share are all very nice. In 8 months i have never heard any of them argue with each other, which for an office of all women i would say thats an achievement.

I have two bosses who are really nice people. One is my boss who is on the same wavelength as me, both Leo's, both from large families, both similiar ages. At first in the job, i thought i never get along with her, because she is super intelligent, and the only degree i have is in life experiences! but we do get on well.

Her desk! it has to be said, she is the No.1 post it queen, she has more notes than the whole of blogger site has on its blogs, and piles of organised piles (clutter or mess), but as i am in the administration role i try to do the work, file it, and my desk is tidy.

Her desk, she knows, she says "My desk is in the process of being tidied, its all organised piles".

My boss also has senior moments, which i have to say rub off, luckily when i have lists of work from her i save them in a folder, so if she cannot remember something its filed away.

I am still alittle apprehensive of talking on the telephone, especially when i have to say... Goodmorning, this is X speaking, and then i have to give the LONG title of where we work, which is a word i cannot pronounce, so i know i say it wrong every single time! HAHA!!!

And there i thought excel would throw me more! But i really do love my job!

My kind of Pink...

Don't you love the background colour, its my kind of PINK!!!

I actually have my bedroom wall painted in this colour, way before i got this blog.

I love pink, the FELL PONIES are fellrunners who have their own vests, and pink is one of the colours, the day i have the fitness to run on the fells, i will be a proud owner of a pink vest!!!

Fellrunners are a different species of runners, i have every admiration for fellrunners, the strength and determination they have is second to none.

I fell onto this forum purely by accident, as i was seeing a guy called Des, who organises races, and i thought i go have a look at what actually fellrunning was, has i had never heard of it before.

And just before Christmas, time of the dreaded tonsilitus, i fell onto this forum, which i have to say, firstly accepted me, until, they realised i was not a fellrunner.

But 700 posts on, i feel they have accepted me, i am only a beginner, but you got to start somewhere...

And Pink, yes i do love pink...

Decorating is exercise...Right?

This is now the 6th week of feeling unwell, first 2 weeks had flu symptoms, then it went onto sore throat, each time i went to the doctor, they said it was a virus, and no antibiotics could be given, so eventually on the 4th week i went to another doctor, who first took a swab test of my throat, two days later the doctors receptionist rings, to tell me i need antibiotics as i have septic tonsilitus, there i have been going to the doctors feeling like crap, and each time they fobbed me off and i had to go home with such a painful throat, so i take the antibiotics on the 4th week, great it clears, 5th week i go back into work, all this time i have to add was over Christmas, so i had used up my Christmas holidays being ill.

So this is the 6th week i am on a 2nd course of antibiotics and thrush medicine, because antibiotics are reknown to give you thrush!

Which means i have to not run this week, the week i was better i did run, love it, i got the urge now to run...

So as its the weekend and i am on my 2nd course, and i am not allowed to go out running, i decided if i wear the decorating white mask, i can do some emulsioning, because its exercise...yeah?

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The walls are emulsioned with the base coat, yes 2 coats and still its a base, and now i have to stop painting the ceiling, as i have been using that paint thats pink but within the hour turns white, well i have a HUGE living room, and half way in its turned white, its now dark outside, and the lightening in here is utter crap, so i have to stop now, wash up and start again tomorrow when i have finished work.

I cannot wait to get some colour on the walls, feel like i just need a long sleeved jacket right now, with all these white walls and half ceiling painted.

Don't you just hate painting, it would have been so much more fun going for a run!!!

I have to do the gloss, but that has to wait till i have got rid of this throat infection, otherwise it will go worse with the fumes, i might possibly do the gloss in the spring, when i can open the windows, its too cold out there to open them.

Listening to...

My painting music playlist...

Bon Jovi - Never say goodbye
Guns n roses - Night Train
The Killers - Human
Semisonic - Secret Smile
LeAnne Rimes - Can't fight the moonlight
Shaggy - Oh Carolina

And the list goes on to really really sad crap, but peacefully enjoyable!!!

Anyone have any ideas on downloads for me, for painting music, email me!

Reason for the blog

I have recently started running, to my friends i am called this is the title i gave myself.


I shall be chatting about diets, health, exercise, and generally taking the P about life in general.

I shall also be chatting about the people in my life, and also the ones i have come across in the past, that have been down right rude, or have been the most wonderful people i have ever met!

Its a journey is a blog, i have a silly funny haha sense of humour, so i may sound as dippy as can be, but then i am into quantum physics, so i might blow your mind with science, who knows!

But right now, my passion is running, or it shall be once i get past the mile marker!